I need to keep up my XKCD quotient (see last entry). Anyhoo, it occurred to me I ought to let anyone still following me know I’ve survived another year. It’s January, and this bear would very much like to go back to hibernating, thank you. I often have a dribble of vacation time left at the end of each year (which I must use, per my company’s particular vacation policy), and 2009 was no different. Without deliberately planning it out, I managed two full weeks off around Christmas and New Year’s.
This week finds me back at work, settling into my old routine. I won’t deny, like many I succumb to New Year’s reflections, although it’s been some time since I actually tried making a resolution. I deeply resent the guilt I feel as December turns to January, and I think of everything I didn’t do over the last year. I feel bad enough about this stuff on a regular basis, I’ll be damned if I’m going to feel extra guilt just because the last digits on my calendar changed too.
But then, I suppose that’s what we’re doing with our calendars…marking time as our lives go along, noting where we are and want to be. If I take each day as it comes, and ignore the things in my life I desperately wish to change, maybe I need that extra jolt at New Year’s to make me focus.
So at the risk of being hypocritical (for I have little faith in myself, which is why I normally avoid this), I am actually looking at the new year and figuring out goals for myself. Things I wish to do, things I wish to change, dare I say it: I’m looking for the resolve within myself to be better.
No, I probably shouldn’t say that, it sounds pretentious. Still, it’s what I’m doing. If I’m feeling really brave, I might even post some of it here and hold it out for the world to see.
Until then, take care of yourselves and be good to one another. I’ll be here.